A new beginning....(again???)
Suddenly, saw lots of old friends blogs, then start to remember that I have this blog site the I have not updated since Dec 2004.. see peh jialat, really lazy man. Looking back, seems that many things have changed... I have switched to another department... I got my new flat finally 3 years of waiting... I left HP... election comes and goes and nothing happens... I will be leaving this island and going to China... 原来什么事都会发生, 原来很多事都在改变, 原来很多人都没改变.
HP, a company that I so proud to be with for 3 over years and so many people yearn for... yet I choose the path to venture into unknown, only 1/2 year after transfer to a new department. Looking back at those missed opportunities, maybe it's overdue liao. Like I always says "Everything happens for a reason".
这几天, 准备搬家, 把许多junks throw away.. brochures from donno what education fairs, those travel thingy that gotten from those agency, training notes, outdated resume, free gift from those company.. only now then know that we live such a wasteful life. so many things that we can live without, we never use, or even aware that existence. Life can be such a simple thing, but we can complicate things by giving ourselve 无畏的包袱,使我们越走越沉重.有时,应该好好清理一下.
在这个城市混了三十载, 一切已经太习惯了.
My today MSN message:
就算天空再深看不出裂痕
眉头仍聚满密云
就算一屋暗灯照不穿我身
仍可反映你心
让这口烟跳升我身躯下沉
曾多么想多么想贴近
你的心和眼口和耳亦没缘份
我都捉不紧
害怕悲剧重演我的命中命中
越美丽的东西我越不可碰
历史在重演这么烦烧城中
没理由相恋可以没有暗涌
其实我再去爱惜你又有何用
难道这次我抱紧你未必落空
仍静候着你说我别错用神
什么我都有预感
然后睁不开两眼看命运光临
然后天空又再涌起密云
风来疏竹，风过而竹不留声；雁度寒潭，雁去潭不留影
Nick: 风来疏竹，风过而竹不留声；雁度寒潭，雁去而不留影
When: Sometime in early 2004
一句禅语。也是一首歌。何时我才能到达"雁去而不留影"这个境界呢?
词.曲.主唱:黄舒骏
雁渡寒潭
雁去潭不留影
惊鸿一瞥
潮来潮去
洗去多少足迹
一切都是缘
多少人曾经轻轻掠过我的眼帘
多少人曾经闯入我的内心世界
多少人曾经用思念将我撕裂
多少智慧才能忍下我的离别泪
雁渡寒潭
雁去潭不留影
静看人间是与非
我们祖先
在这土地繁衍
岁岁年年
多少人默默挥下他们的汗水热血
多少人只是贩卖台面上的谎言
多少人随时准备远走高飞
多少智慧才能破解这虚伪的一切
多少意气风发的少年
失落在理想现实之间
口口声声要做英雄圣贤
最後却变成魔鬼
多少人生活在这个世界
却向往另一个世界
多少智慧才能逃离这古老的预言
前方或會一生奔波 無悔這一生經過
Nick: 前方或會一生奔波 無悔這一生經過
When: Mid 2004
A meaningful song make me wonder about future... Shall I venture out or shall I stay in this small island called home?
無悔這一生 Beyond
陽光歷次消散別去
無理沖擊我心緒
前景沒法打算怎麼
誰會偷生遠方裡
每次記憶哭笑
將心意再變改
一分一秒
無意對一切話別
無意卻遠走它方
沒有淚光風裡勁闖
懷著心中新希望
能衝一次多一次不息自強
沒有淚光風裡勁闖
重值根於小島岸
如天可變風可轉不息自強
這方向
無奈靜聽不捨心聲
和我偏偏正呼應
前方或會一生奔波
無悔這一生經過
縱有冷風飄過
將心緒再痛逼
緊守不變
無意對一切話別
無意再遠走它方
人总需要勇敢生存 我还是重新许愿
Nick: 人总需要勇敢生存 我还是重新许愿
When: Early December
Source: Listen to this song on my way back home after a tired day at work. Suddenly, this lyrics appear 人总需要勇敢生存... Although this is a love song about lost love, sometimes you just need the right song at the right moment 让我感动
明年今日 陈奕迅
若这一束吊灯倾泻下来
或者我已不会存在
即使你不爱亦不需要分开
若这一刻我竟严重痴呆
跟本不需要被爱
永远在床上发呆
余生都不会再悲哀
人总需要勇敢生存
我还是重新许愿
例如学会承受失恋
明年今日别要再失眠
床褥都改变
如果有幸会面
或在同伴新婚的盛宴
徨徨地等待你出现
明年今日未见你一年
谁舍得改变
离开你六十年
但愿能认得出你的子女
临别亦听得到你讲
再见
在有新的瞬间能遇到你
竟花光所有运气
到这日才发现
曾呼吸过空气
我想我等我期待 未来却不能因此安排
When: August 2004
This is a tested time when we are both apart. I know if I continue waiting... nothing will happen. So I make a request...
听见冬天的离开 我在某年某月醒过来
我想我等我期待 未来却不能因此安排
阴天傍晚车窗外 未来有一个人在等待
向左向右向前看 爱要拐几个弯才来
我遇见谁会有怎样的对白
我等的人他在多远的未来
我听见风来自地铁和人海
我排著队拿著爱的号码牌
我往前飞飞过一片时间海
我们也曾在爱情备受伤害
我看著路梦的入口有点窄
我遇见你是最美丽的意外
总有一天我的谜底会解开
One love One life... We get to carry each other
Nick: One love One life... We get to carry each other
When: Sometime in 2003
Origin: An excerpt from song by U2, one of my favourite band. This song is very special and my most favourite U2's song. Very meaningful. I'm still learning to play this.
One (by U2)
Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame
You say...
One love One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it
Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's...
Too late Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt
One love One blood One life
You got to do what you should
One life With each other
Sisters Brothers
One life But we're not the same
We get to Carry each other
Carry each other
One...life
当你见到星河灿烂 求你在心中记住我
Nick: 当你见到星河灿烂 求你在心中记住我
When: November 2004
Origin: An excerpt from a song from Leslie. Another sad song. 黄沾, who penned this song also pass away that month... Look through the lyrics and you can sense that this song is meant to describe their wishes... asking us to remember them after they left this world
明星 - 张国荣 曲：黄沾词：黄沾
当你见到天上星星
可会想起我
可会记得当年我的脸
曾为你更比星星笑得多
当你记起当年往事
你又会会如何
可会轻轻凄然叹喟
怀念我在你心中照耀过
我像那银河星星 让你默默爱过
更让那柔柔光辉 为你解痛楚
当你见到光明星星 请你想想起我
当你见到星河灿烂 求你在心中记住我
Donde Voy, donde voy... Day by day, my story unfolds
Nick: Donde Voy, donde voy... Day by day, my story unfolds
When: sometime in 2003
Origin: An excerpt from a song that I really like alot. A soulful song talk about travelling and loneliness... a sad song and Chyi sung it with such a feeling.
Tears (by Chyi Yu)
All alone I have started my journey
To the darkness of darkness I go
With a reason,I stopped for a moment
In this world full of pleasure so frail
Town after town on I travel
Pass through faces I know and know not
Like a bird in flight,sometimes I topple
Time and time again,just farewells
Donde voy,donde voy Day by day,my story unfolds
Solo estoy,solo estoy
All alone as the day I was born
Till your eyes rest in mine,I shall wander
No more darkness I know and know not
For your sweetness I traded my freedom
Not knowing a farewell awaits
You know,hearts can be repeatedly broken
Making room for the harrows to came
Along with my sorrows I buried
My tears,my smiles,your name
Donde voy,donde voy Songs of lovetales I sing of no more
Solo estoy,solo estoy Once again with my shadows I roam
Donde voy,donde voy All alone as the day I was born
Solo estoy,solo estoy Still alone with my shadows I roam
Why I start this blog
Hi guys,
I often get many enquiries on my msn nicks... on what are the meaning of those nicks and their origins. Many a time, the nicks just come by to my mind... mostly from the lyrics of the songs I hear, some conversations I engaged in or just pure wild thinking... nothing spectacular.
This Blog is about the origin of those nicks and hope you find it interestnig.
Regards,
Travis aka Scenz aka Yee Scen aka Yixuan aka 旋仔。
12 December 2004 (5 days before I leave SG to join my wife in Shanghai!)
